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July 11th, 2008 (05:59 pm)

Last night i laid in bed, while i couldn't sleep. All i could do was think about days that i fell so much in love with a material item. The days that i felt like i was queen of the world because of that item. And now, that item is my biggest cause of stress. That item is what keeps me from going to school and becoming a better person. That item is my car. My car used to mean the entire world to me. It used to bring me happiness, and make my pain and stress just go away when i was in it. Will i ever have something like that again? While this item sits in my back yard and rots, i believe my heart and my soul is too. I believe that a piece of my heart and bits of my soul belong to that car until i die, unfortunately.

That car was my first car i really truly bought and worked on. It brought me a sense of freedom, and a touch of responsibility. It makes me think of all my dreams i had, and why i didn't have a perfect social group in high school. It makes me realize that everything does indeed happen for a reason, even if that reason is better left unknown. For loss of words it taught me about life, and what it really has to offer. To me a car can define a person. It can provide a relative meaning to who they are, and what they believe in.

more to come i gotta go [on the phone paying car payments.]

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that feeling..

July 10th, 2008 (08:05 pm)

ever feel like you're invading on someones private space? like you're bugging them, even though they reassure you that you aren't over and over again?

or the feeling of being left out.. even though you know you deserve to be with the people that left you out. that you may deserve it more than them, but you have no way of showing it?

Right now i feel like complete garbage. I feel like no matter how hard I try I'm not good enough for the admins, or other mods, or even just users. I feel like I'm drowning myself in my own pity, and rage. I don't know what to do to relieve the stress this is putting on me, because this is supposed to be my get away from everyday life.

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Writer's Block: Some words to live by...

June 24th, 2008 (03:00 am)

What words do you find wise enough to live by?



hmm.. some words to live by.. i would have to say "everything happens for a reason. because as far as i know, they do. everything in my life has lead up to me being who i am today.. and i love that. i love seeing the aftermath of something happening and just reassuring myself that everything really does happen for a reason.

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Writer's Block: Gaming From Young to Old

June 24th, 2008 (02:39 am)

What was your favorite game as a child? What's your favorite now?

Growing up I was a spoiled rotten little brat. But one thing i never got to play, no matter how bad i wanted to was video games. I never really liked playing them and when i finally did play them i realized why my parents didnt want me to.. So, as a child i never really liked games. maybe board games.. but not video games.

On August 8th 2007 i found out about this game.. I signed up for it.. and played it for about an hour, with my friend that told me about it. after about the first day i got discouraged.. and didnt wanna play any more.. but i kept on. Just because i had nothing better to do.. a month goes by, im still playing.. just some random girl playing Nitto Legends.. like any regular user.. i made one good friend.. 316 racer. From there, it moved to me getting close to mods. corey, Zer0 cool to be exact. He was the first staff member for me to trust in.. Then came shad..[capri5 0] and a few more.
H
ere i am.. Almost a year later.. one of the most known people in the game.. and my reason for still playing is spanky.. [sp racer] I'm close to almost every mod.. And a few great admins. I'm a staff member without the responisibilites. I help with ideas introduced into the game, i help watch out for users and everything else im asked to do.. With out the powers or colors of Moderators or Admins.

Nitto Legends has became a part of my life, sadly. It's my get away from life, my cars, friends, and my problems. The people on there seem to care more about me than my friends in real life, as i do them. I seem to enjoy talking to them more than i do my friends in real life. Its crazy how one game can change someones life.. But im sure i wouldnt be where i am today if i wouldnt have started playing.


i love nitto legneds. :)

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Writer's Block: Happy Friday

April 25th, 2008 (06:17 pm)

What are you most looking forward to this weekend?
the car show @ the skate park is going to be HELLA fun. im so excited :) lol. i cant wait. then tonight might be a little on the good side as well :) eeks i cant wait. 

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shoot it.

April 5th, 2008 (09:24 pm)








that is all :)

sheshimmersx [userpic]

hi.

April 3rd, 2008 (01:46 am)

hello. how are you.

sheshimmersx [userpic]

Dear Mr.President.

March 31st, 2008 (10:22 pm)

Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh

How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?

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Feel it.

March 31st, 2008 (10:17 pm)

If it looks good, you'll see it. If it sounds good, you'll hear it. If it's marketed right, you'll buy it. But...if it's real, you'll feel it.

-kid rock.

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a new phase?

March 31st, 2008 (07:41 pm)

Today, i had an interview. I had no clue what it was for. But i went today and scored a new job, that pays atleast $15 an hour.  I think that its going to be a great new phase of my life. 

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